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So let me thank you for your time and try not to waste any more of mine.
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Bought new flats! :D
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Going to my cousin's house now to celebrate her baby's one month! Excited to see the baby girl! :D
Tuesday, 31 August 2010
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Need You Now
By Lady Antebellum
see related215/ Baby ♥
Babe. I love you. Please stay strong. It'll get better. I promise. ♥
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I run from hate
I run from prejudice
I run from pessimists
But I run too late
I run my life
Or is it running me
Run from my past
I run too fast
Or too slow it seems
When lies become the truth
Thats when I run to you
Chorus
This world keeps spinning faster
Into a new disaster so I run to you
I run to you baby
And when it all starts coming undone
Baby youre the only one I run to
I run to you
We run on fumes
Your life and mine
Like the sands of time
Slippin right on through
And our loves the only truth
Thats why I run to you
Wednesday, 25 August 2010
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All the Right Wrongs
By Emily Osment
see related214/ Be My Valentine ♥
I've been searching
searching for something
Trying to stop the yearning in my heart was no use
I've been drowning
drowning in dark waters
Trying to break out of all these memories' just too hardIt's easy to say
I can't get away
Everytime I think,
I think of you
My heart still stirs at your name
I gotta get rid of you now
I gotta get rid of you now
And find something new nowI've been looking
looking on the bright side
Listening to songs that you used to say you hate
I've been changing
changing every minute
I'm not the one you used to know
And I'm glad---
My first songs in ages. Good things are meant to stay. I'll survive promos. I'll survive life.
Good day.
Sunday, 22 August 2010
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The High Road
By JoJo
see related213/ Lolli ♥
This kind of chronic sucks pretty bad.
My back and knees are like damn damn damn pain for damn damn damn long already. I have problems climbing the stairs. Especially climbing up them. I have to put all my weight on one side, depending which side was the good leg that day. As I climbed down using the good leg first, my back will start hurting like crazy each step. I take the lift each morning now to the underpass at the MRT, instead of rushing down the stairs because I was late every morning to school. Now I'm late like 98645432 times and I could give a damn. I have to walk slow no matter what. The school has no lift, and I feel like a freak every time I climb stairs one at a time especially when there's a big swarm of people heading off to their next venue after lessons end. So I have to climb like they do and it hurts my back and knees like crazy. I can't do pt like normal. I can't even play squash like normal. I can't do anything. But heck, have I ever complaint till now? Hell no.
I have never told my mom and dad except for asking my mom to rub my back a few times. You are probably going, tell your parents and ask them to go get you checked out. Let me tell you to stfu because my parents are not like yours when it comes to hteir child falling ill.
The pain was so unbearable today till I couldn't even fucking walk, I swear. I'm not exaggerating. I seriously had difficulty walking even though I looked like a normal person walking on the outside. The pain shooting up my back and the side of my thigh was fucking hell. Torture. It was damn sudden. I couldn't even sit on a cushioned chair without feeling pain. I couldn't put weight on my entire lower right back without feeling it throb like a racing heart. I had to bear the 20 mintues car ride to my house. Omg, that was hell damn it. Hell I tell you. Then I just asked her to help me massage she was like "what happened to you? Tsk. Like an old lady like that!" *inserts pissed look* I hate my life. I felt like crying.
As if I wanted this to happen to me!!!
I did tell them 2 days ago, when my knee started to hurt like fuck every time I bent them to walk. Which meant I couldn't walk. Again. I was like, "Pain very long ago already. I think my knee in between the fluid too little that's why my knee very pain." Reply I got: "That's only for old people! Go rub the oil more and put the patch! Drink milk! Who ask you always never drink milk!! Exercise more I tell you!" End of matter.
Fml I tell you.
They've always scolded me when I fall sick. Say I waste their money go see doctor. Say I useless this and that. Don't want to see doctor because I know they will scold, say I stupid idiot. FML.
If I tell them I think this is serious, they won't believe me and they will start scolding me even more. Complain about me wasting their money some more. Glare at me and nag at me like crazy also. My life sucks.
Now got real taiji, they don't believe. Don't even care. Sucks balls. My life is horrid horrid horrid.
I think I will end up an invalid I swear.
my life sucks I wanna kill myself--
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Kaleidoscope Heart
By Sara Bareilles
see related212/ Cherry Red ♥
Hello.
Promos is 30 days plus and I'm still not getting down to studying. I hate studying. I hate my life.
I want to shopshopshop like crazy. I want to sleep and be a pig. I want to fly. I want to dream.
I don't want to face my books. I don't want to try to do homework then got no time ttm to do any studying my life sucks balls.
I hate my life.
Goodbye.
Sunday, 08 August 2010
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Currently
Kaleidoscope Heart
By Sara Bareilles
King of Anything
see related211/ Moment of weakness ♥
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Fuck you, A.
I can't fucking believe you. All your lies and all your bullshit. Doesn't it ever get to you? The kind of sick and psychotic person you are? How can you sleep at night? How can you talk to me and look straight into my eyes all these years without feeling a slightest inch of discomfort? I seriously cannot believe I actually believed 10000000000% that you didn't like him without a fucking doubt. I swear I can't. And you didn't even tell me that you got together with him for a day before breaking up. You didn't even admit that you were being such a bitch and clear up the air so that I didn't get hated along with you for no fucking reason. To me, your supposed best friend. You're fucking impossible, A. And don't you dare tell me it was because of your inability-- and immaturity-- to act like a normal person. You made my life more miserable than it ever should be and for that, fuck you. I thank God for the day I chose to walk out of your life. And the other two, too. Who are obviously still as fucked up as ever as well.
Fuck you for being my friend and sucking at it. Fuck you for sitting in front of me during the first day of school.
Don't pretend to me. Don't act like nothing is wrong when everything is. I grew smart. I have other friends. I have my own life.
So please stop adding me on Facebook over and over again despite me ignoring your request. Tyvm. Have a nice time faking that you have a nice life. I really don't want anything more to do with you.
Thursday, 05 August 2010
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On Your Side
By A Rocket to the Moon
see related210/ Underneath ♥
This is my new favourite song. Awesome shiz: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gzhlGtlX8y8&feature=related
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You know that East Coast girls
Always say what we mean
And shy Southern boys
Often don't say a thing
But opposites attract
And you were drawn to me
And something 'bout you
Sparked my curiosity
They say that good guys
Usually don't come in first
Good girls fall for bad guys
But with us it's reverse
Not your average love song
Between you and me
The way the story unfolds
Defies gravity
Don't have to put on my makeup
I can leave out my contacts
Don't have to dress up for you
To think I'm beautiful
If I have a moody day
I don't have to act like I'm okay
I'm overdramatic
And you know how to handle it
Act natural, be emotional
Show my insecurities
And I love the way you love me
For who I am underneath
(Who I am underneath)
They say guys keep conversation
Short and sweet
And girls can talk for hours
Till they put you to sleep
But you're the one who
Checks up on me throughout the day
You stay on the phone
Even if there's nothing to say
Most guys that I know
Like to go out at night
But you leave that to me
Cause you're not that type
And we don't need
To do anything special to be happy
We got what we need
Make each other complete
Don't have to put on my makeup
I leave out my contacts
Don't have to dress up for you
To think I'm beautiful
If I have a moody day
I don't have to act like I'm okay
I'm overdramatic
And you know how to handle it
Act natural, be emotional
Show my insecurities
And I love the way you love me
For who I am underneath
(Who I am underneath)
Layer by layer you unravel me
Sometimes I am rough around the edges
But you handle me gently
And layer by layer I uncover you
And discover a side of you
That I never knew underneath
Don't have to put on my makeup
I can leave out my contacts
Don't have to dress up for you
To think I'm beautiful
If I have a moody day
I don't have to act like I'm okay
I'm overdramatic
And you know how to handle it
Act natural, be emotional
Show my insecurities
And I love the way you love me
For who I am underneath
(Who I am underneath)
Who I am underneath
I love you for loving me
For who I am underneath---
Too busy. Too busy. Too busy.
Tuesday, 03 August 2010
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Megan Meade's Guide to the McGowan Boys
By Kate Brian
see related209/ Hooked on you ♥
This week's pretty much been me trying to overcome my perpetual exhaustion. Fighting drowsiness in EVERY class every day is a new part of my daily routine. Sorting out a balance in my life. Learning more as I go along.
I don't know what to feel, or do. I've never been in this position before. When I had so much privilege. I feel like I'm Megan in the book above. Funny how the table's turned. It seems like yesterday when I was the ugly duckling. Well, I was always the ugly duckling when I was with them. Overlooked was my middle name. Sometimes it still is. I never had much luck, or chance. I want to take it slow. I want to...discover and be able to enjoy the process. Not to ruin things with my haste or blunder. Not just because I want to fill the emptiness inside of me. No. Not this time. I will keep my head on my shoulder this time, promise!
In my opinion, chemistry isn't something that can be created over impersonal platforms. Chemistry is something instant, something that automatically takes your breath away, something that makes your insides giddy, something that connects. That's what real chemistry is. It's something just...unforgettable. That's why part of me chooses to linger. It refuses to give up, because it wants to pursue more, to get to the end of the tunnel and see what's going to happen in the end. Yet the rational part of me is telling me to propel forward, to forget about this "chemistry" that I imagined on my part. I keep telling myself not to overthink things and overcomplicate them, loading layers upon layers of my past baggage over them, spinning a cocoon of fairytale endings around my dream. But the what ifs are haunting me and I just can't put this to rest and consider about other things.
So... what now?
Beats me, and that's why I have to wake up every morning to find out.
All I can say, I'm a tough puzzle to figure out. Don't invest if you don't have time. Seriously.
Other than that, life's good. I have my friends to keep me sane, and I'm grateful for these lifesavers.
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This is one of the songs that's currently on my "Addicted to" playlist.
Thinking back when we got together
And in our hearts we were saying forever,
So in love, boy we were so in love, mm..
Jealous wasn't what we wanted, we broke up
You looked in my eyes I should've spoke up, and held you near
Now I'm alone and here it comes again
Cause I remember every word that you said
It all just keeps on spinning around in my head
But it don't matter what I try to do
I keep on forgetting to forget about you
And I don't wanna think about you baby so much
All the things we didn't know the way that we touched
Just when I think about someone new
I keep on forgetting to forget about you, forget about you, forget about
Watch me turn around, forgetting to forget about you, forget about me and you
I'd be crazy to say that we were perfect,
And sometimes I wondered if it was worth it
But now I see, how good you were for me
And everytime I drive by your apartment
I get this overwhelming urge to walk in and see your face
And to be in that place, all over again
Cause I remember every word that you said
It all just keeps on spinning around in my head
But it don't matter what I try to do
I keep on forgetting to forget about you
And I don't wanna think about you baby so much
All the things we did it didn't know the way we touched
Just when I think about someone new
I keep on forgetting to forget about you, forget about you, forget about
Watch me turn around, forgetting to forget about you, forget about me and you
The way we laughed, the way we kissed
I never thought that I would miss all the things I used to complain about you (ooh~)
The football games, hometown friends, I was glad to see it end
But tell me why I feel so alone without you.. ooh...
yeah... here it comes again...!
Cause I remember every word that you said (you)
It all just keeps on spinning around in my head
But it don't matter what I try to do
I keep on forgetting to forget about you
And I don't wanna think about you baby so much (so much)
All the things we did it didn't know the way we touched (we touched)
Just when I think about someone new (new)
I keep on forgetting to forget about you,
Cause I remember every word that you said (you)
It all just keeps on spinning around in my head
But it don't matter what I try to do
I keep on forgetting to forget about you, forget about you, forget about
Watch me turn around, forgetting to forget about you, forget about me and you
I can't forget about youThat's the feeling I get. It's impossible not to... Don't you know that? Now, chin up and stop doubting. No matter what, I've invested, and it's for now and forever. I won't take it back and I won't regret it, ever. We are in it together, and I'll never forget how you got me through. There's so much as to how I feel for you, that it brings me to tears.
Friday, 30 July 2010
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Currently
Breathing Under Water
By Marie Digby
see related208/ I'll Swim the Ocean for You ♥
Hello.
Warning: rant coming right ahead.
Heard some unpleasant things today, and I'm totally angered by it.
People who don't know how to put biased opinions aside, even if you don't agree with what's already happened, it don't mean that you can disrepect what's already happened. By disagreeing with others' opinion and tweaking arrangments it shows how much you are incapable of objective thinking and exactly how easily you disregard people's opinions and feelings. How low an EQ you possess. It's extremely rude to express such opinions in our faces and even arrange for things to happen in the way YOU want it to happen.You shouldn't let your personal opinion to impair your judgment and ruin your sense of propriety. It's true that it wasn't really our best day but it was partly caused by some other people who were just...disappointing. Imo we were awesome that day, and you bitches out there better learn how to accept that.
Please shut your trap because you have no brains and rights to even comment. Because you simply suck.
(Quick breath)
Some people are just pure annoying, no? Seriously. EVERYWHERE I go, I meet people like these, have to interact with them and they just suck. Idc about them, honestly, but can I please not cross paths with them? It's highly exhausting for such an intellectual(and one with fairly good EQ at that) like me. Fyi, as to you and you, there's a reason why EVERYone in the entrie doesn't like you very much. No, it's not because there's someone out there who's bitching about you to everyone, seriously, who has so much time on their hands? It's because YOU have a serious attitude problem/personality flaw. Please stop thinking the world owes you and your precious ass. Don't walk around floating on a cloud of delusion and denial. Reflect upon it please. It'd bad enough I have to see you two so often like major
Anyway. On to happier things. Fm today was fine and I'm glad it didn't completely screw up. Hopefully mass dance will be more fun and something like Cheer. Today was just "get it over with" for me. Sorry for those of you out there, but that's my opinion. Nothing's the same now that it's a different group anymore, no?
I miss Cheer.
This doesn't sound very happy, does it? Right.
Happy things. Pink things. Happy things = pink things!
Some pink phones I find cute:
(From Sony Ericsson)
The first one is called Spiro and the second one is called Zylo. I have a preference for slide phones even though I know the mechanism spoils much more easily than flip ones. Spiro looks nicer but Zylo has better functions. I HATECHOOSING BETWEEN EXTERIOR AND INTERIOR. Can't we have the best of both worlds? When will designers ever get it?
(From Samsung)
The first one is B3310 and the second B3410. The black one is chio-er right? I've never liked Samsung. I'm more of a Sony Ericsson girl, but maybe it's time for a change! They're cute though.
I'm going to get a new phone sometime after Promos. Or when I'm done with moving house. Heh. Looking forward to a new phone!
Oh, and I was VS-oogling a few days ago and these chiochiochio dresses me likey!
Pretty right? I wish I could buy every single one of them! But I think they'll be too huge for me. Sad!
Another happy thing:
THURSDAY = FRENCHBRAID DAY ^^
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MY CLIQUE AND MY CLASS. AWESUM PEOPLE! ^^ All right. I'm looking forward to tomorrow more than anything. Shall organize my now fuzzy train of thoughts tomorrow when I'm thinking more clearly. "Nap time" as YH likes to say, is here.
Wednesday, 28 July 2010
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Top Girls (Student Editions)
By Caryl Churchill
see related207/ Back to Basics ♥
I have a dream.
It's a simple dream, nothing big.
It's the first time I've had the same one for such a long time before, it's a record. I used to switch them all the time, flitting readily from one idea to the other because I wasn't very sure what I wanted to do with my life.
My dream is like a caterpillar, it's weaving itself a cocoon to protect itself from being shattered once again like the many other caterpillars before it. I'm sure I want to do this. I want to make it my plan, for keeps. I don't want it to all through and leave me all muddled and confused.
I have a dream. My dream. My tiny little dream, it's not big enough to be called concrete yet it's not small enough to wave away either.
My dream is to be an air stewardess. To travel and see the world, more than I could ever if I chose to work a normal desk job.
Why an air stewardess?
I've always wanted to travel. Travel to exotic places. To experience more cultures. To feel that you are but a small part of the big big big world, it's an amazing humbling feeling that I want to feel. I want to see, smell and taste thing I'd never have dreamt of in my entire life. I want to see the sunsets in another place far away from home, on the other side of the globe. For someone that's only ever been on a plane once, for someone who's only ever been to Malaysia, Indonesia and Thailand, it means a lot.
Sure, some people say it's dangerous. Hijacks, terrorism, plane failure and all that. So? Sometimes because things are so unpredictable, you learn how to appreciate them all the more. Others say that it's just being a high-class maid with inconsistent shifts. Yeah, and hello, world!
People wonder why I want to be something that doesn't require a lot of academic qualifications. Or anything else, really. Besides appearance, that is. I don't really, either. I don't want a stable routine 9 to 5 desk job. I can't live that kind of life, being so driven and so single-minded towards completing task after task and meeting after meeting with almost no respite. It's almost like studying all over again. They think it's not really a job and I'm not being serious. Well, newsflash, I am.
I WANT this. Although as for now I'm planning to work as one for 2 to 5 years. After which I would probably settle down to the drudgery of a desk job. Who knows? But I do know that I definitely want to be an air stewardess sometime in my life. It's settled.
Why am I randomly talking about this?
It's because the principal talked to us today. She asked about our goals and end in minds. She urged us to keep that goal in sight and constantly work towards it in a focused manner. I only know I want to be an air stewardess.
How do I work towards something(assuming a "real" job) when I'm not sure what that something is?
How about lost souls like me who don't really know what to do with their lives?
Where do we go?
Saturday, 24 July 2010
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Currently
Dear Diary
By FM Static
Dear God
see related206/ Juicebox ♥
Emotional highs and lows in rapid transititon is not uncommon nowadays for me. Sometimes I feel on top of the world and others I feel like digging a hole and stay in hiding there. I guess I need to sort myself out again and reorganize my inner thoughts. *stable, deep breathing*
As all of you(or maybe not) know, I never intended to study in a Junior College, much less Meridian. I've always dreamt of entering a Poly, going to school in the afternoon, dressing in my own clothes and getting much more freedom than before.
But I didn't. I came to MJ.
I think there was a reason for me to choose this path. I've been pushing my boundaries, discovering parts of myself that weren't known to me previously and I've been having a lot of fun doing it. Busy as hell, yes. But also fun.
I've tried for HC which I never dreamt of dreaming about, and albeit I didn't get in I got a lot from my first time speaking in front of so many people in the scary lecture theatre.
I went for Cheerleading, got to know a bunch of awesome beyond words people, performed in front of so many for the first time since I was primary2 and winninng made my efforts of going for practice and tolerating nagging from my parents well worth it.
(Imy, guys. Once a cheerleader, always a cheerleader!) 
Our hard work being recognized!
♥♥♥ I love the fact that we were all in it together!
ClubberJoy who was awesome for going for Cheerleading with me!!
Awesome people.
I tried for Exco in Squash and had my first interview ever. I guess that feeling of intimidation will somehow prepare my hammering heart for my future scholarships and job interviews, yes?
I tried for Model, which only happened recently, and even though I didn't win, it was so amazing to get ready with my girls in the loo, freaking out like crazy before the walk, still freaking out like crazy during the walk, freaking out still after the walk and getting to know more friends and well, just standing in front of everyone looking pretty.
All the models who did a fantastic job that night!
My so-called prize LOL.
The wonderful Atlas models.
Joel! He's the awesome-est host ever. He did a great job!
Ben and I. Thanks for being an awesome partner! Thanks for coming even though you were sick. I really appreciate it!! Still owe you some lime juice
Two shots from our very short photo shoot. My facial expressions were mostly fail because I was too nervous and kept laughing. But it was an experience I'd never forget. So, who cares!
My awesome friends who helped me get ready and/or supported me for the walk! Everything, EVERYTHING, I had on for the shoot and walk wasn't mine and was loaned from my friends. Only my face hair and undies were mine. Thanks to Atikah Amanda Nabila Yining Jennifer Joycelyn AND MANY MORE AWESOME PEOPLE!
My point is, I've participated and went for so many things I would never in my life imagine I would go for, and I've learnt how to go out of my comfort zone. Even though I didn't get any leadership positions or anything much really, I feel like it's a blessing in disguise, to put it in perspective. I shedded a hide-load of potential responsibility and more business before I got too deep into things. I had time to concentrate on my studies and only failed one subject, which is Literature(IKR this sore point seriously annoys me).
I've also got to know so many wonderful people especially my girls in class! I've also gotten the chance to change the perception of many others who knew me and used to have a bad impression of me. That makes me a happy girl.
(I still think the boyfriend thing is going to have to wait for uni though, judging by the way things are going. And Cai IM GOING TO WIN THAT BET!!!)
I think maybe JC was the right path for me after all, where I have the chance to get to know myself better before diving right into some specifics like in Poly. I got the chance to explore and that is something I can never be more than grateful for.
Right now, I just want to make the most of this 2-year journey(I'm not going to retain and I'll make good my word). Create memorable memories for me to replay over and over when I graduate. I guess this journey of self-realization is going to get even morer exciting from now on.
I have a pact with my babe Vivian♥ to meet up once a month to catch up even though we're both leading such fulfilling and busy little lives, because we're awesome like that. ♥♥♥
Went out for movie and dinner with her yesterday night. Watched Inception and I think I want to watch it again to understand it better LOL. We warmed seats for BK for an hour and half talking, dishing and camwhoring before heading to MOS to meet Vivian for dinner.
It's just so awesome when two of your bestest friends in the whole wide world know each other.
Some cool effects she downloaded for her Mac's Photobooth:
I'm in love with how cute this makes us look!
Pretty girls. I'm learning to accept that I am beautiful, no matter my imperfections or my bad hair days, because best friends see the beauty in you, not just the outside beauty that strangers see. ♥
This is so annoying but so cool at the same time! The number of small little picture changes as you click the button and photobooth goes 123 and even inverts itself, so you'll get a nice surprise when you see the finished one. Or not.
"We look like ghosts". Or really cool holograms.
A bit of green because I know Vivian loves green!
This is a tad freaky. Just a tad.
A normal shot, taken with MY camera. Heh.
Her new Blackberry! I am so bloody jealous.
That reminds me: my next post coming soon will be about pink phones. Because I'm going to show you awesome pink phones you can't resist!
I just ♥ my Vivian!! She's awesome to the core. She's always there for me and I'll always be there for you. You're the only one who can take my immaturity(cause we're primary school friends), the only one who knows me well enough to tell me when I suck for real, to let me complain about gazillions to you and take in stride, the only one who I can go shopping with for anything and everything and manage to find something, the only one who won't think my affections are too over, the only one who takes me as I am. ♥
So babe, I'm here clebrating your existence and the day we met. If there's one thing I'd thank God for, I'd thank Him for letting us be BFFs. ♥
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- Name: HuiMin
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