This kind of chronic sucks pretty bad.

My back and knees are like damn damn damn pain for damn damn damn long already. I have problems climbing the stairs. Especially climbing up them. I have to put all my weight on one side, depending which side was the good leg that day. As I climbed down using the good leg first, my back will start hurting like crazy each step. I take the lift each morning now to the underpass at the MRT, instead of rushing down the stairs because I was late every morning to school. Now I'm late like 98645432 times and I could give a damn. I have to walk slow no matter what. The school has no lift, and I feel like a freak every time I climb stairs one at a time especially when there's a big swarm of people heading off to their next venue after lessons end. So I have to climb like they do and it hurts my back and knees like crazy. I can't do pt like normal. I can't even play squash like normal. I can't do anything. But heck, have I ever complaint till now? Hell no.

I have never told my mom and dad except for asking my mom to rub my back a few times.  You are probably going, tell your parents and ask them to go get you checked out. Let me tell you to stfu because my parents are not like yours when it comes to hteir child falling ill.

The pain was so unbearable today till I couldn't even fucking walk, I swear. I'm not exaggerating. I seriously had difficulty walking even though I looked like a normal person walking on the outside. The pain shooting up my back and the side of my thigh was fucking hell. Torture. It was damn sudden. I couldn't even sit on a cushioned chair without feeling pain. I couldn't put weight on my entire lower right back without feeling it throb like a racing heart. I had to bear the 20 mintues car ride to my house. Omg, that was hell damn it. Hell I tell you. Then I just asked her to help me massage she was like "what happened to you? Tsk. Like an old lady like that!" *inserts pissed look* I hate my life. I felt like crying.

As if I wanted this to happen to me!!!

I did tell them 2 days ago, when my knee started to hurt like fuck every time I bent them to walk. Which meant I couldn't walk. Again. I was like, "Pain very long ago already. I think my knee in between the fluid too little that's why my knee very pain." Reply I got: "That's only for old people! Go rub the oil more and put the patch! Drink milk! Who ask you always never drink milk!! Exercise more I tell you!" End of matter.

Fml I tell you.

They've always scolded me when I fall sick. Say I waste their money go see doctor. Say I useless this and that. Don't want to see doctor because I know they will scold, say I stupid idiot. FML.

If I tell them I think this is serious, they won't believe me and they will start scolding me even more. Complain about me wasting their money some more. Glare at me and nag at me like crazy also. My life sucks.

Now got real taiji, they don't believe. Don't even care. Sucks balls. My life is horrid horrid horrid.

I think I will end up an invalid I swear.

my life sucks I wanna kill myself--

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Fuck you, A.

I can't fucking believe you. All your lies and all your bullshit. Doesn't it ever get to you? The kind of sick and psychotic person you are? How can you sleep at night? How can you talk to me and look straight into my eyes all these years without feeling a slightest inch of discomfort? I seriously cannot believe I actually believed 10000000000% that you didn't like him without a fucking doubt. I swear I can't. And you didn't even tell me that you got together with him for a day before breaking up. You didn't even admit that you were being such a bitch and clear up the air so that I didn't get hated along with you for no fucking reason. To me, your supposed best friend. You're fucking impossible, A. And don't you dare tell me it was because of your inability-- and immaturity-- to act like a normal person. You made my life more miserable than it ever should be and for that, fuck you.  I thank God for the day I chose to walk out of your life. And the other two, too. Who are obviously still as fucked up as ever as well.

Fuck you for being my friend and sucking at it. Fuck you for sitting in front of me during the first day of school.  

Don't pretend to me. Don't act like nothing is wrong when everything is. I grew smart. I have other friends. I have my own life.

So please stop adding me on Facebook over and over again despite me ignoring your request. Tyvm. Have a nice time faking that you have a nice life. I really don't want anything more to do with you.